I grew up?? Why?

Who would of ever thought I, Gia, would grow up?? Why?? What did I do to deserve that? Growing up sucks, so does losing all your friends in the process. First, I had a hard time in elementary school, being the odd ball that has no color coordination, then through my grueling years of middle school, followed by the most embarrassing time period of my life. I chose my friends carefully, being sure to keep a wide selection of quirkiness, with a truckload of understanding, yet, at the end of the day, after having children, it really just boils down to the politics of honesty regarding parenting and marriage. You have a perfect marriage, you say? I'm sorry, but that automatically disqualifies you from being my friend. Your children are always well-behaved and respectful? I apologize, but that is a sole deal-breaker for friendship with me. As adults, we have our own cliques, using loyalty (and honesty) as pinkie-swears, but what am I left with? Friends that I used to relate to, 2 years ago? Friends that don't understand me now? I am faced with a very hard decision, to conform or not conform, I am just too tired and mature to conform now. I accept myself now (after 32 years), why bother making others accept me?