Back down to 5 Pounds!

This week started off on the wrong foot, as I weighed in at 262. However, this morning, I am back down to 257.2. This is five pounds lost. Wow, what a difference watching what you eat really makes!
Yesterday, was my father's birthday and I was soooo worried about the birthday cake I was going to devour. What's worse, my mother called me and told me she cooked my favorite steak (bisteak, which is breaded and fried). How can I resist? Where did my mother learn these Chinese torture techniques? It's just not fair. So I did what was expected of me, I ate some bisteak, but in a "normal" quantity. I also served my son on my same plate so I would have to share my amount with him. As for the ice cream cake, I ate a "small" piece and actually threw a bite away! wow! Who the hell are you and what have you done with the REAL fatass Gia?? I was actually proud of myself.
On better news, I am trying to breastfeed my daughter again. I thought that the milk that I am still lactating would be rotten, but apparently not. According to La Leche League, the milk is still good and would be great if I started breastfeeding her again. At first, when I stuck the nipple in her mouth (sorry if there any men reading this) she looked at me with a quizistive look. But being the great baby that she is, she said "the hell with it" and went on to sucking. Shes so great. What is even better, I have layed off on the smoking. Yes, I know, I know, I shouldnt be smoking anyway. I am trying to stop. Perhaps the breastfeeding will also make me loose some calories (is it vain for me to think this way)?
On another topic, I took my son to the Pulmonologist today and got some news about his asthma. First off, I am to continue giving him two aerosol treatments a day and Cingular once a day. But they did an allergy test that has shown some funny results. Well, not funny, but funny in the sense that crap like this only happens to me. Based on the results of the allergy test, JJ is allergic to mold. Now, for the normal person, that would'nt be a problem---> just dont have him smell old, rotted, moldy trees. But for GIA, this means that the mattress that someone let us have, that got a little wet while in storage, that has mildew built up, that I tried cleaning with several products and vacuuming, ---> it has to go. So now what? I have to throw away his mattress and figure out where the money tree grows so I can pluck a couple of bills off of it (preferably the bills that have a guy named Benjamin) Nevertheless, somehow, someway, a new option will appear. Again, as always, wish me luck. Or should I say, "pray for us"?

I'm Trying

Well, I got back on the scale today. Back down to 260, that is still 7 pounds more than I had gotten down to, but hey, at least the scale is going down in my favor. I must admit that I ate like a pig yesterday, BUT, on healthy things. Yes, I know, the calories add up, but I'm trying. Doesn't that count for something?
I stopped smoking yesterday. I went back to breastfeeding my daughter and I need to be extra healthy to do so. Its a HUGE challenge (the quit smoking part) but well worth it. I have been smoking for 15 years, so quitting is something very difficult for me. However, going back to breastfeeding really means more to me. Last night I put Gianna back on my breast and she seemed confused at first, however, after a little bit, she started feeding like a pro! Shes such a great baby!
This morning, I ate the usual breakfast, egg whites with tomato and cheese and oatmeal. I brought my lunch which consists of SmartOnes frozen meal and carrots and celery to munch on with a tablespoon of ranch dressing. In case I still feel hungry, I have a weight watchers yogurt.
Today is my Dad's birthday and I'm worried about the cake they are going to have. I don't want to cheat on my diet. All my hard work for the day will go down the drain for a piece of cake. Not to mention that we catered a meeting for the our department and I KNOW there will be leftover breakfast. how can i resist that temptation???? I think I can, I think I can, I think I can! Toot, Toot!!

This Sucks!

Well, folks, I have bronchitis and am feeling really sick. I have been this way since Thursday of last week. Considering that I'm really sick, I have decided that that gave me a clear permission to eat everything in sight. This included ice cream, pizza, more ice cream, cereal, and did I mention ice cream? Lets not forget the power of chocolate. I had it all. I ate like a ravenous beast. So, it was no surprise yesterday when i weighed myself and I saw 262. Yep, folks. I gained 9 pounds over the long weekend. All the water weight just flooded back on. I'm tired of working my ass off during the week and then just packing the pounds back on over the weekend. That's IT! I said from the very beginning that this was a lifestyle change and not a diet. So Gia, act like it. I'm so pissed about the weight gain that I didn't even weigh myself this morning. I feel like a failure.